[ he reads this all over. it's something he more or less already knew, but it's good to have it all... laid out there for him like this? one of karkat's problems is that he has a tendency of overanalyzing situations to the point where he isn't sure if he's freaking out over nothing or if there is legitimately something to freak out over? since a lot of the time it is over nothing. ]
ROSE AND I WERE ORIGINALLY JUST ATTEMPTING TO GET HIM JUST TO AGREE TO TALK. SO WE WEREN'T EVEN FOCUSING ON THE PROBLEM YET? JUST ATTEMPT TO, I DON'T FUCKING KNOW, GET HIM TO LET US APPROACH IT AT ALL. AND THEN HE AGREED TO NOT JUST TALKING, BUT TO EVERYTHING? WHICH IS PART OF WHY I'M SO UNEASY ABOUT IT. BUT THE THING IS... I WOULDN'T BE SURPRISED IF HE LIED TO ME, BUT HE TRIES REALLY FUCKING HARD NOT TO LIE TO THE OTHER ROSE. IT'S THEIR THING? I CAN'T REMEMBER IF I TOLD YOU THAT THEY'RE SIBLINGS. ANYWAY, I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, "OK HE MUST BE TELLING THE TRUTH HERE BECAUSE THERE IS NO GODDAMN WAY HE WOULD LIE TO ROSE RIGHT TO HER FACE LIKE THAT." AND NOW I'M NOT TOO SURE ABOUT IT.
ALSO EVERYONE ELSE TENDS TO TELL ME THAT THE WHOLE NO PUBLICITY THING MAKES ME A GIGANTIC DUMBASS. I DON'T REALLY GET HOW TO EXPLAIN WHY IT'S SUCH A THING THOUGH, WHICH MIGHT MAKE ME A DUMBASS. WHO THE FUCK KNOWS. BUT IT'S STILL A THING REGARDLESS.
I AM ABOUT TO SAY SOMETHING REALLY DISGUSTING AND AFTER THIS CONVERSATION I WANT YOU TO NEVER REPEAT IT EVER AGAIN OR ELSE I MAY LEAP INTO THE VOLCANO. BUT I DON'T WANT HIM TO BREAK UP WITH ME.
[ the disgusting thing here is sincere feelings LMAO ]
AND IF WE DON'T FIGURE THIS OUT THEN I'M PRETTY SURE THAT MIGHT BE THE ONLY OPTION AT THIS POINT? IT'S JUST A FEELING I HAVE. AND I COULD BE OVERREACTING, LIKE GODDAMN ALWAYS. I AM THE OVERREACTION KING, IT IS ME. BUT SOMETHING TELLS ME THAT'S NOT THE CASE THIS TIME?
I'LL TRY THOUGH. THE SHITTY HARD PART IS JUST GETTING HIM TO AGREE TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING THOUGH. HE'S PRETTY PRIVATE TOO EXCEPT IT'S IN THE "HE HATES FEELINGS JAMS" SENSE. WHICH IS THE BIGGEST PAIN IN THE ASS? BUT YEAH. SHIT NONE OF THIS MADE SENSE DID IT. I DON'T NORMALLY TALK ABOUT THIS KIND OF THING WITH ANYONE OTHER THAN DAVE. AND YOU ALREADY KNOW FUCKING WELL THAT GOES.
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ROSE AND I WERE ORIGINALLY JUST ATTEMPTING TO GET HIM JUST TO AGREE TO TALK.
SO WE WEREN'T EVEN FOCUSING ON THE PROBLEM YET? JUST ATTEMPT TO, I DON'T FUCKING KNOW, GET HIM TO LET US APPROACH IT AT ALL.
AND THEN HE AGREED TO NOT JUST TALKING, BUT TO EVERYTHING?
WHICH IS PART OF WHY I'M SO UNEASY ABOUT IT.
BUT THE THING IS... I WOULDN'T BE SURPRISED IF HE LIED TO ME, BUT HE TRIES REALLY FUCKING HARD NOT TO LIE TO THE OTHER ROSE.
IT'S THEIR THING? I CAN'T REMEMBER IF I TOLD YOU THAT THEY'RE SIBLINGS.
ANYWAY, I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, "OK HE MUST BE TELLING THE TRUTH HERE BECAUSE THERE IS NO GODDAMN WAY HE WOULD LIE TO ROSE RIGHT TO HER FACE LIKE THAT."
AND NOW I'M NOT TOO SURE ABOUT IT.
ALSO EVERYONE ELSE TENDS TO TELL ME THAT THE WHOLE NO PUBLICITY THING MAKES ME A GIGANTIC DUMBASS.
I DON'T REALLY GET HOW TO EXPLAIN WHY IT'S SUCH A THING THOUGH, WHICH MIGHT MAKE ME A DUMBASS.
WHO THE FUCK KNOWS. BUT IT'S STILL A THING REGARDLESS.
I AM ABOUT TO SAY SOMETHING REALLY DISGUSTING AND AFTER THIS CONVERSATION I WANT YOU TO NEVER REPEAT IT EVER AGAIN OR ELSE I MAY LEAP INTO THE VOLCANO.
BUT I DON'T WANT HIM TO BREAK UP WITH ME.
[ the disgusting thing here is sincere feelings LMAO ]
AND IF WE DON'T FIGURE THIS OUT THEN I'M PRETTY SURE THAT MIGHT BE THE ONLY OPTION AT THIS POINT?
IT'S JUST A FEELING I HAVE. AND I COULD BE OVERREACTING, LIKE GODDAMN ALWAYS. I AM THE OVERREACTION KING, IT IS ME.
BUT SOMETHING TELLS ME THAT'S NOT THE CASE THIS TIME?
I'LL TRY THOUGH.
THE SHITTY HARD PART IS JUST GETTING HIM TO AGREE TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING THOUGH.
HE'S PRETTY PRIVATE TOO EXCEPT IT'S IN THE "HE HATES FEELINGS JAMS" SENSE.
WHICH IS THE BIGGEST PAIN IN THE ASS?
BUT YEAH. SHIT NONE OF THIS MADE SENSE DID IT. I DON'T NORMALLY TALK ABOUT THIS KIND OF THING WITH ANYONE OTHER THAN DAVE.
AND YOU ALREADY KNOW FUCKING WELL THAT GOES.